Tuesday, 15 December 2015

A year gone...A year to come!!!

15days remaining for a new year to start ....all of a sudden I felt like to look back in the past and take a sneak-peek at how my year went!.... Compare to all those headlines that come up in a newspaper everyday.. my year went all Okay!.. Everything had its mix of ups and downs...At some point I was the happiest person alive.. and at some point I found my life very terrible to bear with! First....  I fumbled many times and then still managed to get a great bunch of friends....At present state,they are the ones for whom I am willing to do anything within my reach!,well I dont know about future...  what we all lead up to......but I guess unless something really really  bad ( ps: I dont mean some bad momnts or emotional fluctuations...but rather want to focus in misunderstanding!) crops up .... we all will be sharing this bond for a pretty much longer time! Second, I am the kind of person who is all the time very busy in what others think about me...  and in a way I always try to create a better image of myself so that no matter what I dont get hated by anyone.... so for that reason ... to a fair deal.. I have a Lot of friends now evn before though! ... (apart from my close ones)! And that has gone to another level this year where I am friends with many many people .... all thanks goes to every Social Networking Sites I have ever logged in to  :p  Third.. Like all years, I tried to be a good daughter to my parents.... which like every year I failed  in various ways..  umm like every other parents I dont remember my ones saying anything good about me.which prooves I failed them.. and so I guess I need to keep up with the same resolution next year too...... Fourth..... A little angel has walked into our family.... my cousin-sister.... possibly the best thing that haaas happend in my family :) ... Fifth...I got into my Branch..and got to know Cse in  a little way possible .. made more friends :) .. though I am not much in love with my branch but I guess there's still a little fondness which would probably help me in completing my course for the nxt 5 sems ! Then..this year I fell in love!An unexpected,unbiased,demandless Love ...  Probably the greatest achievmnt out of this was that I grew up as a better person.. Well not that I became sensible and all ...may be I somehow learned to accept things as it is without having any hard feelings :)  Seventh.. I lost few kgs!!! Well that was not much physically distinguishable but atleast my weighing machine said so!!! :) Eighth....I am loving my Hostel Life! I fell in love with it this year itself...
The single room,♡ the next-door girlfriend :p ♡ The upstairs and downstairs girl-friends♡ the late night coffes ♡the baseless ( read : wrekless, pointless, dirty , nuisance talks!)♡ few seniors♡ me as a senior♡ everything sums up as a Happy Hostel Life :) Ninth.... everything above written.  do sums up as a happy College Life :) Tenth ...  talking about college life.... how could I forget to mention about my First College Fest attended .... God, whenever I recall it...some kind of happy butterfies start flying inside my stomach with a huge grin in my Face! :)  way bigger then this smiley .....
Eleventh ....well the much awaited Tamasha released and that made half of my year as charming as possible :) :D Twelfth.Thirteenth.. Fourteenth..... and the count still continues...... but at last everything sums up as a good year.... with more 15 days left... and my expectations still ride high!! So let see.......  What happens Next in the New Year To come :)

Tuesday, 8 December 2015

Tu koi aur hain.... Jaanta hain tu, Samne is jahaan pe ik naqaaab hain!!!

Sometimes when you watch a certain movie of your favourite actor(read: favourite as in highly obsessed like a crazy fanatic bitch! Inshort u seem too suffer from OCD once his name is taken!) , you behave as if when he laughs.. you r the most happiest person in this planet and god forbid! When he cries ,it seems like the whole world has broken down!!! You tend to sync with the actor so well that his on-screen image becomes like a mirror for you and you follow it rigourously ..But then when you re-watch the movie over and over again, you understand that it was not “him” nor his acting that was more appealing to you!... it was all about the character he potrayed!!!
While watching the character u sense a Déjà vu in it! and the similarities are not with anyone or anything.. its all with you! All the while you were rigorously trying to copy ur self and be a reflection when already u are  the mirror!  Funny!!!!!...........the story was yours, the reason of joy was yours and the reason he was crying was already known to you since it was Your story! You are left with mixed emotions…
Now..surrounded amongst the cloud of questions is you and you are poured with their  showers !!! .. they are asking you… Who are u?What are u?Why do u have to listen to everyone else’s order? Why don’t u have any opinion of urs? Why is that everything .in ur life is so under-fulfilled???!Why is that in spite of being so jolly.. u still seek for happiness ?!What do u aim at? What are u good at??????!!!!
These all cramp up ur brain.. give u head ache, and even attempt to give you a hemorrhage! You are left to do nothing, but just stare at those blank walls!!! But then u see a crack .. a crack in the wall!! This is it!!! This is wat u wre looking for.. a crack! so that all the solutions to ur problem seeps in !!Out of the zillion solutions coming up.. u wander around for the right answer…. And then u finally come up.. one day! You realize that all the solutions to ur problems lies within you..i.e. you already knew the answer!
You laugh… laugh at such a big fool you are! Laugh at the “havoc” that you have created for yourself . But then  u get up… get SUITED UP! ,cos u know u have fumbled once, fallen down many times but this time u have risen up with an aim!! An aim to make every next step of yours as LEGEN-wait-for-it-DARY!!



*Post-realization when u have watched Ranbir Kapoor's Tamasha atleast for 10 times